Time to dust off the old blog once again and post some memories I hope not to forget. Our family is in the beginning stages of something completely terrifying yet so amazing, we can't contain our excitement!
We are going to foster to adopt.
Seven words that are forever going to change the path of numerous lives. In one act we are changing the lives of:
Us
Our Children
Our future child/children
Nanas and Papas
Aunts and Uncles
Friends
Strangers
We do not take this lightly and have put considerable thought/prayer into this decision. Can I be honest?
I'm scared out of my mind.
Questions run through my mind, all of which I do not have the answer to. What are we doing? Bringing a child into our home who has had a lifetime of possible pain, neglect, disappointment, etc. Things our biological children know nothing of. How will they fit in to our home, our lifestyle, our faith, our lives? How will our children feel about another sibling, and one not coming in the way they came? Am I a good enough mother for this kind of challenge? Will they be taken away from us?
However, it's the other thoughts and emotions that cover all those previous questions with a simple answer. Yes. Whatever it takes, yes. Because aren't we all hurt, disappointed, lost and confused in some way? But God has adopted us into his forever family, given us hope, love, joy and life.
I am most certain my heart will be ripped apart at some point during this process, if not many times. But I am not afraid to grieve. I am afraid of what will happen to these children if no one takes the risk to love them.
"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18
